It's been a long time since I wrote anything. I'm not real good at blogging and wasn't sure it would help but I am going to try again.
My husband and I decided it was time to add to the family...we got pregnant the very first month we tried (which isn't usual). We were soo excited and I started to plan everything...then came the spotting and cramping at 5weeks...and then came the miscarriage. This is my 2nd miscarriage. My first miscarriage was our very first child before our daughter and our son. Needless to say it was devastating. I think even harder as 4 of my friends are also trying to conceive at the same time. My fear is that I won't be able to be happy for them when and if it happens. I do know that 1 of dear friends is pregnant and I am genuinely happy for her but not as much I would normally be. I am still sadden that my child is gone and I have to start again. The waiting is killing me. I want to just try RIGHT NOW but my doctor has insisted that I wait 2 full cycles. I pray daily that God will give me the strength to be patient and trust that His time is perfect.
