Good Enough

Do you ever feel like you just aren't good enough.  Like no matter what you do and how well you think you've done it you're still not meeting someones expectation??  Do you ever compare yourself to other mothers or friends or wives and wonder why they are so much better at something than you?  I do all the time.  I need to find a way to appreciate what I am able to do and how well I can do it and stop wishing I were as good as so and so.  God gave me my talents and the capability to do it a certain way.  I need to be thankful for that.  It's not always easy to be satisfied with what you have and there is nothing wrong with trying to make yourself better at something.  But I think we sometimes get carried away and end up feeling down on ourselves for not being BETTER at everything we do.

The Value of Pain

Kids are amazing when it comes to pain and empathizing with others who are in pain.  My daughter truly has a heart for people.  Her Nana became ill the other day and she took her hand and said, "I am so sorry you are not feeling well Nana.  I love you."  So genuine and so heartfelt.  Today she made a new 'friend' while standing in line for the H1N1 shot.  Her name was Katie.  They became BFF's and said they loved each other.  When Katie went to get her shot, both girls were calm.  All of a sudden Katie started screaming and Kayla just wanted to run to her.  She then started crying herself saying she was sad because her friend was hurting.  Eventually she calmed down and both girls were fine.  Why can't we as adults have that same empathy towards those in our lives.  Why do we so often brush aside their feelings and their pain?  If we focused less on ourselves and more on each other, this world would be a much better place.

Do you ever???

Do you ever wonder if your good enough?  Are you a good enough mom, wife, friend, daughter, sibling??  Do you question your every thought, move, action?  I do.  All the time.  I thought I knew who I was and what I stood for but am not so sure anymore.  You start to lose your identity as you become a wife and a mother.  Soon the person you used to be and were so proud of has disappeared and you look in the mirror one day and say "Who is that person".  My challenge and goal is to find my new self as a individual, wife and mother.  To find value in who I am as a person so that other people around me will find value in me.  Hopefully, putting my thoughts and fears on a blog will help me sort through it all and I will find the true me that is waiting to be discovered.